Friday, December 21, 2012
我想收藏。回忆就是依依困扰在我脑海里。第一次约会第一次牵手第一次香吻我都还记得。说的做的有的没的对的错过的我心里都在碰。爱的那么深，痛也痛的很。我会慢慢收回慢慢的静下来。你确实是我最深爱的女生。
Why should I hold on when I'm not the one who let go. Not 4 years ago. Not 5 years back. Why do you keep coming back when you need someone, and then tear me down when you decide not to try anymore. How am I suppose to feel. To linger on and wait for you to need someone? I really am tempted to do that.
That day when you came back to me and asked what rank of pirioty are you to me. I replied friends and you are second to family. Because they are the ones who helped me up when I'm down. You looked upset and asked if I could make you a little more important than friends. I promised you. I thought that would be the last time anything could happen between us. I put in 100% into you. I put everything in it. Is it fair for me to feel angry and upset now? All I ever wanted is for you never to give up and keep fighting for me. I gave in all. But you were thinking about how you would regret about him.
If I never treasure this relationship I won't be crying over it now. If this means nothing to me I would have given up the day you talked about him. I hold you on no matter how many times we quarrel because I care. I hold on till now even though I know you are thinking of going back to him that day. You give up. Will you ever realise I never change much, the feelings passion care patience time love, its the expectation you want from me in him. Till now its still the same. 4 5 years ago. It still hurt. But even more.
Never a day I remove the 1st and 2nd year couple ring off my finger. Never a day I change the display picture in my phone computers and anything. Never a day I think of any other person. Never a day I felt less for you. How much it hurts now is how much I believed in you not to do the same thing to me again. How much it hurts now is how much I put in this relationship. Its also how difficult for me to take back of what's left. Its unexplainable.
我可爱的女孩，你已经不在。说好的约定的已就没关系了。 如果他是真的比我还要爱你，那请你把我忘了吧。我受的伤会慢慢好起来。我会渐渐的安静和消失掉..
(9:32:00 PM)