Friday, December 21, 2012
When you're gone, I just lose track of what to do. Thinking back, everything I do, Im always thinking of you. Guess I just need more time. Our time, our memories, our promises, your smiles, your pretty face, your voice, your temper, your eyes, your touch, your hands, your smell, your hair, your heart... I had to give them away...
Hey, if ever you looked back into this blog. I just wanna tell you that, i don't hate you... I hope you are doing fine. And that day, when you were overseas at genting with your family, when my friends and I went over to Kehui's house to see the shooting stars... I hope my wish really comes true. Then, I wish you all the best.
I will heal up no matter how hard it might be. No matter how long it takes. No matter what happens. No matter much it hurts. Take care...
It takes just a while to create happy moments
It takes another second to turn them into memories
But it takes forever just to put them aside
(9:37:00 PM)
我想收藏。回忆就是依依困扰在我脑海里。第一次约会第一次牵手第一次香吻我都还记得。说的做的有的没的对的错过的我心里都在碰。爱的那么深，痛也痛的很。我会慢慢收回慢慢的静下来。你确实是我最深爱的女生。
Why should I hold on when I'm not the one who let go. Not 4 years ago. Not 5 years back. Why do you keep coming back when you need someone, and then tear me down when you decide not to try anymore. How am I suppose to feel. To linger on and wait for you to need someone? I really am tempted to do that.
That day when you came back to me and asked what rank of pirioty are you to me. I replied friends and you are second to family. Because they are the ones who helped me up when I'm down. You looked upset and asked if I could make you a little more important than friends. I promised you. I thought that would be the last time anything could happen between us. I put in 100% into you. I put everything in it. Is it fair for me to feel angry and upset now? All I ever wanted is for you never to give up and keep fighting for me. I gave in all. But you were thinking about how you would regret about him.
If I never treasure this relationship I won't be crying over it now. If this means nothing to me I would have given up the day you talked about him. I hold you on no matter how many times we quarrel because I care. I hold on till now even though I know you are thinking of going back to him that day. You give up. Will you ever realise I never change much, the feelings passion care patience time love, its the expectation you want from me in him. Till now its still the same. 4 5 years ago. It still hurt. But even more.
Never a day I remove the 1st and 2nd year couple ring off my finger. Never a day I change the display picture in my phone computers and anything. Never a day I think of any other person. Never a day I felt less for you. How much it hurts now is how much I believed in you not to do the same thing to me again. How much it hurts now is how much I put in this relationship. Its also how difficult for me to take back of what's left. Its unexplainable.
我可爱的女孩，你已经不在。说好的约定的已就没关系了。 如果他是真的比我还要爱你，那请你把我忘了吧。我受的伤会慢慢好起来。我会渐渐的安静和消失掉..
(9:32:00 PM)
Thursday, December 20, 2012
Yesterday I dreamt of you wanting me back so much so much.
But back in reliaty, I'm just a fool.
(10:32:00 AM)