Tuesday, January 26, 2010
听说你已经有了男朋友。
我已经哭倒没有泪流了。
我很累
很累。。
(12:06:00 AM)
Monday, January 25, 2010
春天要到了， 你这么还没回来呢？
我不懂我在做什么。 还好像你。
还记得我们的约定， 我们的歌吗？
傻傻两个人
许过一个愿
当时星星眨着眼
看起来并不远
为你长翅飞
为你被风吹
请你千万要等我
带幸福来给你的那一天
春天散步夏天看海秋天数落叶
(我们)一直没有烦恼
一直没有争吵
让每天像糖一样甜
冬天飘雪我是棉被温暖你的夜
一直在你身边
一直爱到永远
你就负责靠着我的肩
贴着你的脸
拍一张照片
世界是很复杂的
要靠我近一点
但愿你每天
幸福又安全
两只恋人手牵手
谁也不用再跑给谁去追
不懂得为何在等什么， 做什么。 一直都在想着你。
我不怕跟别人说我对你做过的错， 可是我怕的是把我心中对你的爱藏起来。
我懂我有带给你很多悲伤， 也一直都让你哭， 让你失望。
可是我还想说， 我好想在你不高兴的时候弄你开心， 弄你笑。
如果你又看到这个讯息， 我也很想对你说，
对不起。
应该是我们还小吧。
Labels: sometimes it really hurts again
(8:23:00 AM)
Saturday, January 23, 2010
Hey yo. Finally im back from hospital! Doctor asked me to return on thursday or wednesday i forgot and then not as what i expected, they asked me to stay there -.- Never in my life i stayed in hospital before. I was reluctant to stay there ! I've got pneumothorax, and a very rare case in a common case. If the trapped air inside my chest expands, i could faint anytime. I don't want to die.
CHEY! How can boyi die so young?! I still got long way to go. Anyway, in the hospital i met this person just beside my bed, he's a nice funny guy. Mr. Santhosham, was he's name. He shared he's indian chicken with me ! HAHA. And, i think he's the only patient that talks to me in the hospital other then the nurses and doctors. And ya, i've got lots of time doing nothing. One day is like one whole year.
And i thought of her. Memories. Just came in like that. I miss somebody badly.
And ya, there is alot of medical students which came in to exmaine me as this is a "rare" case in a common case. The medical students was accompanied by their senior doctor and the senior doctor was like, "May i bring in some of my students to exmaine you? If it would be okay?"
I am like, "sure sure!" And alot of times. These few days i think like got hor, 30 plus students exmaine me, doing the same thing. Until i can mimic them le -.- The students would draw the curtains and asked me to take off my shirt. Then ask if they could have a look and examine it la. Then, would touch here and ask me breathe, touch there ask me breathe. It was done so many times i could also tell the newer students what to do -.-
And and, when this group of medical students go le, not long after another group of students would come exmamine me. They would draw the curtain, ask me take off shirt same same. I was like, aiya why dont i just take off my shirt dont wear back le -.- lmao rofl.
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Pictures time!!!
Before everything, I was on this bed on the operation checking room for more than 4 hours -.-
Even the fruits have vege! -.-
Eat eat yum yum!
HAHA!
Was bored so parents brought newspaper and tibits! Calbee! My favourite. Our favourite hahas.
Compare this to previous post haha! Put on the uniform -.- Believe me its ugly.
Im breathing with this tube for the past few days.
The uniform! Sure dont let you see me with it!
My pillow...
Breathing on this lo.
Cool not? -.-
END~
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And ya, i tell you. Mr. Santhosham told me something that made me cant sleep one night. Cause he was a patient from SGH last year and know quite alot of doctors and nurses here, he's like a...hmmm....like a regular patient here la. Then he told me that last year around February, he was on the same bed as he was beside me. He said, every bed sure got people pass away on that very bed before. Got one time during he's stay last year, the next ward got people die. And the scary part is that, 5 people died on the same day :/ Omg. This scares me. I didnt talk. He just say, even the nurses also scared. He didnt bluff me as one the male nurses is with him last year and witness it too.
So, he very scared. He want to change his bed facing the nurses. So he ask to change to the same ward where the 5 people die la. Cause there directly infront of nurse mah. Then that night he went to sleep, and he felt something pressing on his chest. Until he cant really breathe. He knows what he's thinking on that time. He knows he's widely awake on that very moment. But, he cant move. Cause something invisible is pressing on him. Due to he's fat stomach he told me, he was able to struggle through and then, tell the nurse infront of him.
The following day, another patient die. Cause is unknown.
When i heard this, I was, omfg. Serious?! He also told me he witness how one old lady die on the bed infront of him too. She kicked the bed very hard, struggling. So he ask for help, but when doctor came, she was gone.. That following night i think alot .__.
And, also some years ago when he's over at the hospital, one patient went missing. So the nurses they all went searching for him. Even the other ward's nurses join in to help searching. Searched every where in the hospital and announce in the pa system. But still cant find him. The canteens, the toilets, the tv corner, the stairs all searched. It was night time mah, so asked for security help. Then security found this patient's body inside the toilet. The problem is, the nurses could not find him in the toilet. But only when the security guards went in the toilet, then they can find. Talking about this made me real scared. Mr. Santhosham told me all the nurses were very afraid too.
End of his stories. Haha, in the end to summarise on the stay in SGH, i think it was lonely. Still. I miss somebody real badly not because i wanted to, it was because i cant control it. Yea, should be this so far bah, if tomorrow could think more than shall blog about it too!
Labels: sometimes it really hurts again
(9:24:00 PM)
Thursday, January 21, 2010
WTH omg lo! I crawl up at 4 to catch up the match arenal vs bolton. Now half time so i blog . Wth, i switch on the channel and it's 0-1. 1 to bolton. Omg, scare me like ...Then denilson foul bolton at penalty area and -.- 0-2 as taylor from bolton scores penalty. I was like, what the... Nothing to say. And heng, near half time Fabregas with a nice play passing to Rosticky and he scores for arsenal for 1-2. When i watch the match im so ji dong ! From tired tired dead zoombie become like, putting mentors into a bottle of coke =.=
Match facts: I see arsenal with the ball MOST of the time (67%). First half is weak and off for arsenal.
-And bolton had all players back to defend . ALL. Why don't just call the whole of 11 players to squeeze together to block their goal post huh? Lol!
Ohkay ohkay, second half is coming up. Please win arsenal!
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Second half over
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Lol, guess what? Arsenal won 4-2 omg. But the equaliser is not very good for me. Gallas had a bad bad bad foul on bolton and referee didnt see it. And then Fabregas scores from the right side, between the keepers legs. So to me, Arsenal only won 3-2. Haha, it's still a win for arsenal! The whole match is so exciting! HAHA! Now, back to my sleep!
Labels: sometimes it really hurts again
(4:38:00 AM)
Tuesday, January 19, 2010
Life is so cruel. Just like that.
Today went for check ups. Really shocked. Im going to die soon. thats why i said lif is so cruel..Just joking. But really going to die from boredom cause i cant do sports for a very long time! Omgwtfbbqnby.
Btw bored and took pictures at the hospital bed.
Trust me,super bored one ohkay?!
My bed
Frabregas! My idol. Ahh!
So bored then take pictures on the hospital bed.
haha see my feet!
This is the only openings i can see outside from inside D:
Imagine having a needle or plasic whatever inserted in your hands for like 6 hours and lying down on the bed waiting for time to pass. It's like omg. Lollol.
And btw, i got my blood samples taken out. 6 tubes i think. SIX aCONTAINER TUBES OF MY BLOOD OMG!
Labels: learning to let go
(10:20:00 PM)
Sunday, January 17, 2010
I remember what you wore on our first day
You came into my life
And i thought hey
You know this could be something
'cause everything you do and words you say
You know that it all takes my breath away
And now i'm left with nothing
So maybe it's true, that i can't live without you
And maybe two is better than one
But there's so much time, to figure out the best in my life
And you've already got me coming undone
And i'm thinking two, is better than one
I remember every look upon your face,
The way you roll your eyes, the way you taste
You make it hard for breathing
'cause when i close my eyes and drift away
I think of you and everything's okay
And finally now, believing
And maybe it's true, that i can't live without you
Well maybe two is better than one
But there's so much time, to figure out the best in my life
And you've already got me coming undone
And i'm thinking two, is better than one
I remember what you wore on our first day
You came into my life
And i thought hey
Maybe it's true, that i can't live without you
Maybe two is better than one
But there's so much time, to figure out the best in my life
And you've already got me coming undone
And i'm thinking
Oooh i can't live without you
'cause baby two is better than one
There's so much time, to figure out the best in my life
And i've figured out with all that's said and done
Two, is better than one
Two is better than one.
Labels: sometimes it really hurts again
(1:03:00 AM)
Saturday, January 16, 2010
I don't want to lose another person most dear to me in my life again. No it can't be happening. I don't wanna lose you. I know i did not visit you the way i used to anymore. But i will. Give the time and the chance. I will change myself. Give us more time to spent together can? I beg you don't leave me. I love you.
(11:18:00 PM)
Friday, January 15, 2010
I didn't meant to show what i felt inside. Seriously i just can't control.
Labels: sometimes it really hurts again
(11:49:00 PM)
I don't know wad i'm thinking. Everyday goes by, your existence still haunts me everywhere, everytime. I still thought that you're there by my side. When i eat, i think of happy moments we used to spent together. Sad ones too. I can't forget her.
If life is like a chess match, then i could say that i did not regret moving the first step. It's just in the middle of the match that i moved wrong. Which could not be reversed. Every steps every turn you make must be really careful. Once a mistake, it could cause your King to die - you lose. Like always, i keep losing.
My uncle told me this little story once, and i told her before when she's real upset with her family once too. Holding a family/relationship/friendship( not so )is like scooping a pile of sand in ur hand. The tighter you hold, the more the sand would fall off from your hand. Your hand is just a guidance, not a control. Once you made yourself be controlled or control somebody else, the more the person would run away. And also, your hands have limited spaces to hold an amount of sand. Do not be too greedy, or the more it would fall.
For the few mistakes i've made is that i move the wrong step in the chess game and wanted it to be reversed, and holding the sand in my hand tightly.
I wanted to forget. But it just can't. People told me, aiya going pre-u or poly you will find a better person de la. I thought i could not do it. I've already give myself to that someone. i put into it alot alot. But now i guess i can't take it back. I guess it's so hard to take it back. Yea..so hard..
I need a break for myself, I've gotta pull it through manzxzxzxzxzxzzz. Boyi should not cry boyi should not cry boyi should not cry boyi shouldnot cry boyi shouldnot cry boyi should not cry boyi should not cry boyi should not cry boyi should not cry boyi should not cry boyi should not cry bpyi should not cry boyi shout ot cry boyi should not cry boti should not cry boyi should not cry. argh. why am i fucking doing this to myself?
Labels: sometimes it really hurts again
(11:03:00 PM)
Saturday, January 9, 2010
Wee wee~ wednesday went to open house with clique and poof! One day
gone! (: HAHA! Met with some people first then at night for dinner! It was fun, better then rotting at home! HA! Let the picture speak for that day, shall we? ^^
Got lots to say about this guy. In summarise, lame!
Took this candid shot!
See his arms! MUSCLE!
REMEMBER this photo! Gonna talk about it later! ^^
Candid candid candid!
Look at Krystal! Doesnt she look like, Lele?! ^_^
Cassandra and Le Le!...'s owner!
Weini and ...
Why is huiying always ready to take picture de! HAHAHA
Huiying and cassandra
POCKY! HA! memories..
At first we went to Singapore Poly. But didnt take much pictures there. Then to ngee ann! Then to imm where we all meet! People just after work jiu come find us le! Dinner!
This picture is funny! Really funny LOL!
This guy is so, pink LOL
PINK muscles!
PINK body!
PINK shirt!
Then, home! HAHA. Oh about this picture...
HAHA at ngee ann poly open house, when we were walking around then came to this 'games' corner where krystal pass a donut to her cousin! Then, this poly guy come physco us to join the game! Three people to form one team and then to do alot of activities to accumulate points! The top teams would get a chance to win ipod! Lollollollol! Then actually the top three is 39 points. Then we've got 38 points at out last station. Then they give us a chance to get bonus points if we complete another mission! And, poof! Team 快快乐乐 came in third! Omg the hardest is dragon boat! HAHA overall is all fun fun fun fun! (:
Labels: Just Fall
(10:16:00 AM)
Wednesday, January 6, 2010
Holiday so sian!!!!!!!!!!!! Wah cant stand it manzxzxzxz. Yesterday was fun outing with class clique ! HAHA here is the pictures for ytd! Let pic talk! xD
Look at wenjie's cute face! xD
Me and krystal looking at camera pictures!
Look! Kehui so enjoying herself! Lollollollol! And huiying twist!
My turn! Serious mood! (o.o)
Ps ah! shaky camera! Dont know who take de!
Kehui goes, "AH IM GONNA WIN THIS GAME!"
Hey dont take picture of my face! (if u notice u would know kehui sunburned her face! ;x)
OMGOMG weiting face o_o
Holy lights -.-
Shannice and Geraldine
Kehui, Shannice, Huiying, Weiting and Gavin!
Everybody enjoying themselves!
Haha! Cant believe people like us would play board games for like, 4 hours -.- Amazing. But, of course, ALOT OF FUN! HAHA! But not everybody was here. The next time will comfirm call all of you guys out soon de! ;D
Labels: Just Fall
(1:10:00 PM)