Monday, December 21, 2009
Have you love someone so badly that it makes u cry?
Have you wish so much to turn back time to redo all the wrong things you've done?
Have you ever wish to stop the time when with the person you adore the most?
Well, i have [: But guess let's just let nature take its course ba. I cant explain to myself too, that why i have fallen for this girl since dont know from start of 2008. Till now. So much memories, those of good ones and of course bad ones. Although sometimes things dont happen to the way i want it to be, i still know at least it happened before. Think again, if someone really likes somebody, he or she would want the person to be happy. That's why i'm learning to let go. Just it isnt that fast la hahah. For me, of course i very much wish to rewind everything so they can be in place. Ai yao nai xin xun zhao, gan jue hen zhong yao. I will still wait.
Love is to give in and dont expect anything in return, love is patient, endurance, beautiful, it's just wonderful. Love is also a part to learn pain, jealous, and its always blind accompanied by madness. I know i love her, so i must learn to let go.
Today i went walking around to the places we've been together. I walk down to pioneer mrt station, remembering that time we helped a pantless old man home and we also took pictures there together. Then down to the playground when she first climb on top of the monkey bar and jump down! Then to the staircase where we spend the evening as it was raining. It was our first official outing on that day. Haha then to the play ground where we exchanged valentine's gift, till the first time she allows me to hold her hands ^_^ Too much memories. Of course it made me teared. At least it happened [:
Haha cant imagine walking back from jp back home ba. HAHA we did walk together from near school there to jp before. So long and fun. To think i walked back alone today..hahas i miss her. So much things i've done wrong. When im with her, i should treasure her well. But i didnt. When im with her, i should give in more. But i didnt.
When i miss you, ill make every second counts
cause i miss you~
I'm really am confused sometimes on what to do. Get so stressed up and so emotional. Maybe this is me ba, I'm very emotional, sensitive and cant let go that easily de person. I find it hard to let go, but everytime i just told myself, it's for her it's for her, she will be happy this way she will be happy this way, it gives me the "strength" to do it. Cool down alot. It hurts. It really hurts. Hurts..Pain and all. It hurts. Words cant explain this feeling.. I've done it before, yea i have. I still like her so deeply.
Another sleepless night yea, still staring up the ceiling. All these stupid fightings it makes me go crazy why it had happen. All she needs is care and concern. All i have to do is to freaking be more understanding.
Okay i went stressed up and just now. Took a break. I wish someday we could count the stars together, talk craps and lame things till we"re both tired and don't feel like talking anymore, to concern and care for her, be there when she needs me, to never fail to cheer her up, all those hugs and words to show that i really love her for who she is, all these for once more. It's okay boyi, at least it happened before [: i mean it.
P.S: I still love you.
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Thursday, December 10, 2009
I still believe we have fate . Im going to work hard. I will.
-update on blog(s) le.
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Saturday, December 5, 2009
I really regretted..after so long le..
I miss her. This is a veh different bond towards her. I cant feel from others, only her. Tat's why it hurts so much.
Think i've said before i'll meet all your needs..
Girl, all i am is afraid..
I still like you alot. If ur're happier this way, i'll do my part.
i'll push you far away instead..
After all it's my fault. I was too selfish, too self centred. I regretted. It's my fault. I wun expect u to forgive me. Bt, i still lyk u. I cant control tis bond. I cant erase tis feeling. Sorry..
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